Thanks for taking the time to explain the ritual. It sounds very spiritual in nature. I was thinking the rituals the Nun's in my Catholic grade school were putting me through were odd.
Anyway, good to hear your PMA is still high. Don't worry so much about H having a good time. Get out and do something on your own that you find fun or entertaining. Good job on the weight loss. Wear something this weekend to make H notice.
"It is curious that physical courage should be so common in the world and moral courage so rare." -Mark Twain