It's great that your H is showing you love and affection. Extremely positive. You're doing great!! Keep doing what you're doing. SHOWING H your devotion and love.
hi rainbow,
what u said are nice...but i don't wanna keep my hopes up. it is just too good to be true (if that's the case). something is bothering me for the past days and i don't know what is....it's like something is about to explode. --------------------------------------------------------
journalling:
H lashed out again last night, which unfortunately led to some argument. i told him i really respect his point of view of our situation, and of me. if he thinks i'm a "slut", and the one to blame for everything...so be it. nothing i can do about it... i mean i brought it to myself and not him. told him i'm sorry i could not live up to his expectations.
i wish i could just disappear in an instant.....so they could just live their own lives and forget about me...like i never really existed. that's just how i feel right now.
still praying... _______________________________________
im happy for your family and thanks for being there God Bless.
