Welcome....not where you want to be but for now it is where you NEED to be...
I understand the whole kiddo thing....my H basically snuck out in the middle of the night....telling only me that he was leaving....when he did talk to the kids (20,18,9 at the time) it was days later and they were totally crushed...D18 didn't talk to him for the next 2 years!!!
Our religious counselors tried to reason with H about the reprocussions to what he was talking about doing....I can tell you this....I don't care how reasonable a man is, how much of a conscience he has, how good he has always been....when he enters the world of MLC you won't see any of what was....it gets ugly and depressing...
Good news is some of us make it out the other side with our spouses back in our lives...H is back now with us....long bumpy and winding road....
Hold on....and maybe take daughter for a mini-facial....my girls like doing spa stuff with me!
Take care and vent here....cry here....it really does help...