Hi Jack - I had a pretty good day - I had an appointment with my therapist who I love - she is great and so supportive
also the day started well - my H is still home and he came in his morning ( he works nights ) and My D , him and I shared a few laughs over her breakfast
later - I asked him if he wanted to go shopping together for her birthday next week - he said yes so we planned it for Sunday now I am psyching myself up to keep it light , try to enjoy the moment and focus on making my daughters 17th b'day next week nice
My therapist suggested asking my H to do something Valentines day - I decided against this as I think he will view this as pressure - also just found out he has an appt with his C that evening - so I am planning having a nice Valnetines day for myself by scheduling a facial that day - and taking my daughter out to dinner
Mostly - I am trying to stay positive - and keep on track with realizing that no matter what happens - I am a caring, compassionate, person who is a great mother and great friend and if he cant see that now - maybe he will again some day
also I found a book in the bookcase that someone gave me before this even happened - I never read it but I started to today - its called "Embracing Uncertainty" by Susan Jeffers - teh sub title is breakthrough methods for achieving peace of mind when facing teh unknown - I am only 20 pages into it but it us very good - its good to have me helping myself
me - 47 H - 50 /49 when bomb happened Daughter 17 years old married 21 years together 26 years Bomb August 06 H still at home 'I love you but not in love with you'