Should I even be here?

[BeingMe]

Yeah, I tend to over-analyze, which is probably why I would recognize it in someone else. I am also a bit of a bulldog, and have a problem letting things go, but I am learning, and getting much better at it. You sure have found a way to let go, in a very positive way. At least, your postings reflect that. I like your comment, "most of the stuff I do from here on out in regards to xw are things that work toward closure for me, not things for her". Now is the time to focus on yourself and your children, and your XW must continue on her journey, wherever that takes her ... could even be back to you ... who knows, 'eh!

Hope you have great plans for the weekend. I work tomorrow at our local ice-rink, then church on Sunday. Next week is my last week at work. I find the shifts don't work for me, while studying, and it definitely won't when my H is away from home during the week. So, I resigned, and I feel like I have time again, to do stuff for me. (Gosh! That still sounds selfish to me, sometimes, but I know how important it is to have time to myself, to pursue my own interests, while still plugged into my H's and children's lives.) Take care!