Well, I thought I'd spice up my thread a bit and do some snooping in my W's emails I stopped doing that before because they were really boring! But every once in a while I take a quick peek. They serve to remind me of how twisted and depressed her mind really is. It tends to shock me back to a place where I can be more objective about things. It gives me a little insight into her R with OP as well. OP likes to send her these uplifting messages, you know, quotes, poems, stories all about people seeing the good and not the bad blah blah blah. Yup, she's my W's AD. She's adopted a sick puppy and has this mistaken belief that she will nurse it back to health. But, W doesn't want to be nursed back to health, she sees it as too far beyond her capacities so her replies tend to accentuate how pathetic the "optimistic" crowd is, she legitimizes why she is as depressed as she is "sure it's my fault I have complaints, I should change...nobody's allowed to be weak..."blah blah blah. What a sick and sad way to live your life. OP is just as sad as she keeps up this pathetic attempt to be my W's good side...Gee, do you think as long as she doesn't have to develop her own good side then she won't? This little scenario keeps W hooked into OP as she can't see herself able to keep herself going. Wow, that must create resentment, anger and helplessness! Damn, it's better to be me! OK, no more snooping.
I stopped doing that before because they were really boring! But every once in a while I take a quick peek. They serve to remind me of how twisted and depressed her mind really is. It tends to shock me back to a place where I can be more objective about things. It gives me a little insight into her R with OP as well. OP likes to send her these uplifting messages, you know, quotes, poems, stories all about people seeing the good and not the bad blah blah blah. Yup, she's my W's AD. She's adopted a sick puppy and has this mistaken belief that she will nurse it back to health. But, W doesn't want to be nursed back to health, she sees it as too far beyond her capacities so her replies tend to accentuate how pathetic the "optimistic" crowd is, she legitimizes why she is as depressed as she is "sure it's my fault I have complaints, I should change...nobody's allowed to be weak..."blah blah blah. What a sick and sad way to live your life. OP is just as sad as she keeps up this pathetic attempt to be my W's good side...Gee, do you think as long as she doesn't have to develop her own good side then she won't? This little scenario keeps W hooked into OP as she can't see herself able to keep herself going. Wow, that must create resentment, anger and helplessness! Damn, it's better to be me!
