I'm new here and need help

[hannahsmom]

Good morning
I am holding up ok - my H started counseling last night - I have my appt with my therapist today.
How I wish I had come to you all earlier for help - maybe it was my way of living in denial that this was happening to me
I was always so cavalier when this has happened to people in my life - always the caring friend who listened to my friends who have suffered with this problem or ones like it - now its happening to me and I feel so ashamed at how I smugly thought in my head that I would never be going through this. My husband has mentioned both in our MC sessions and when he dropped the bomb seperating or divorce - I know it is tearing him up at the thought of us not beng together for our daughter. I also worry that I've made some mistakes - I actually looked at a book called the irritable make syndrome that desribes MLC behavior - in a moment of weakness I gave it to him - later I left him a note in the book saying that I regretted giving it to him and it was not my job to fix or diagnos him - he seemed to accept that apology - interestingly enough I know he brought the book to his first counseling session last night
Anyway - thanks for checking on me - I'm finding that as I type these posts I am crying my eyes out - but better here than in front of him
I hope everyone has a good weekend - I am resolved to get thru Valentines day next week - I've decided to book a facial or massage for myself that day - lets all do something nice for ourselves !