COg YOU are the man I hope to grow up to be except with the sex part. You described my feelings the ones I felt for years. It is diferent now but i went through all of that before,it was one of the reasons I left.As you know my marriage is back on track again and this is not a problem anymore. It made me feel so ugly and unloved. Yes i had a good friend had EA but could not bring myself to have sex with anyone but my wife,but it was a thought that went through my mind constantly. i just wanted her to love me and nobody else.Now she gets it and goes out of her way to make us both happy in and out of the bedroom and i have read all I can about what women feel and how they view sex.
