Thank you all for sharing! Astimegoeson, my husband worked in IT as well. He had a regular Mon. - Fri. schedule, but was on call all the time. No matter what time or what we were doing, he was bound to receive a call. Quality time with love ones does need to be a priority.
I am trying to not regain my title as the OT Queen, but habits die hard. I am planning on setting a limit for myself on the amount of OT I will work. That would be progress.
Journaling:
Had two phone convos with H. I initiate both calls. One after my MIL and I took our daughter to have some "ritual" done so she would not cry so much and be more healthy. My MIL's idea of course. I called to tell him about it and the convo continue about my D and the funny expressions/things she has been doing. That was the longest call we have had in a long while. Another baby step?
The second call was made on my way to work. I told him I was on my way to work and I had learned on to ride a bike. Learning to ride a bike has always been one of my personal goals. I was not able to before because I was too afraid to fall to give it a good try. Now going through this sitch and all, falling down and getting a few scratches don't seem that bad. He was surprise I was going to work so early and commented on it, but then he recalled the OT so I didn't have to explain. Simply him remembering about my call last night was good. He was asleep and my call woke him, so I didn't think he would remember what I had said. He congratulated me on learning how to ride the bike. I asked him if he was on his way home. He told me he was still at work and went on to explain why. He ended the call. Still considering it a positive since he bothered to give me details on why he was still at work.
As I am typing this, I hope I am not being too optimistic about the prospect of reconciliation. He may just be acting as he is because he is comfortable with the current situation with no thoughts of reconciling. He may even think he has made the right decision to file for the D. Just voicing some of the thoughts crossing my mind. I won't let them bother me too much.
PMA is still high and am confident it will remain high for the next few days.
