yes, i believe i'm back to square one with the M. i understand that what we had was gone and im trying to build something again.....just don't know how, just yet. _____________________________________________________
journaling:
saw H yesterday going over some posts here and i think he read mine too.....i just smiled and teased him a little. would it be okay for him to do so?
i was watching tv in our bedroom. he saw me there after he took a shower, sat beside me....hugged and kissed....i really appreciated what he did. been waiting for it but not really expecting. i know, coz it hurts when we expect things to happen and it doesn't. anyways i'm happy with his gesture, i kind of like it more than S.
R, you're doing so so well. Very proud of you. It's ok for your H to read your posts on DB. If you hide anything from him, he might get suspicious and you've only be genuine and sincere on the boards here. So yes, it would be ok for him to read your posts. Maybe you can welcome him to post if he wants too. He might not take you up on that, but it's been done before where spouses have used this board to communicate with each other in a safe way.
It's great that your H is showing you love and affection. Extremely positive. You're doing great!! Keep doing what you're doing. SHOWING H your devotion and love.
The re-sculpting of the R will come in time. The two of you will figure it out. In order to do that, figure out what it was that caused you to seek the attention of another man in the first place and find ways to deal with those causes. Also, ask H what makes him feel loved by you...i.e. when you cook him a nice meal of his fav. foods? When you iron his clothes?
BE loving in all ways to everyone around you and you will find that love returned to you 10-fold.
blessings my dear
rainbowlove ------------------------ JG is coming back to me and we're going to have a family. Positive thinking!
