How the heck do you do that, Muddle! Seriously, I need tips from the Master on this. It's not that she doesn't do nice things for me, at times she does. I try to be accepting and genuinely grateful when they happen. But to be happy with a person who is so miserable much of the time feels so beyond me! I do notice that weeks she seems to be more up my PMA is skyhigh but on weeks, like this one, where she is in a mood my PMA drops drastically. It's the underlying hostility I pick up which probably (again, for the millionth time) has little to do with me. I am just the recepticle she spits into. I also wonder about why even bother? If I was in a prison camp, like Victor Frankl, it would be absolutely imperative to look for ways to survive as best you can but I am not in a prison camp, I can leave! Sometimes I think only a fool or someone with real emotional issues would stay here without the hope of anything changing (I know things change all the time but...)Are the heavens going to open up and my W is hit with the revelation "My God, I love my H"...don't think so. Is it best for the kids to see their father treated like furniture and learn that this is how you treat a spouse? Maybe it's just time to clear the mind and go from there. Thanks again, Muddle.
