Hey, how about not expecting anything, and then looking for the positive in what happens? It's there you know. There's genuine caring there. You're focusing to much on your hurt to see it.

I think you are trying to make your world predictable with your expectations. Maybe if you detach from your desire for an outcome, from your desire to know what will happen, from your desire to protect yourself from the threat you are expecting, you might just realize that your PMA is still going strong. Focus on the positive.

“No problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it. ”
– Albert Einstein