not feeling any better today. The lack of improvement on kissing/ML issue is getting me down again. I'm starting to think I must be some sort of wierdo for thinking about it so much and H doesn't seem remotely bothered that nothing is happening. I just can't seem to find a solution to this problem. Well not the problem cos I know only H can sort that but a solution to me handling it better. I don't feel wanted, or loved, or needed AT ALL. I just keep on trying not to ask H about it or mention it but I've only managed that for five days and I'm at it again. H doesn't want me to be struggling with the issue but there is nothing he can do about it (well appart from the obvious which he can't/won't do) How can you stop feeling attracted to someone who you're attracted to?? How can I stop feeling like I want to kiss him?? I feel so trapped. I don't want the R to be over yet I can't handle the R how it is. I really don't see how something like this can be put up with for months on end. I'm scared I'm messing up the very last chance I have. I love this man so much and now I feel like I'm going to lose him because I love him and want him - how ironic would that be.
