He said he's seeing someone new

[Ophelia]

It helps me to think of all the great times we did have together because they can't be taken away and even if he shares other moments with others, those will still be our memories.

That's true, no one can take away the memories we share. It can be a bit too bittersweet remembering the good times though. Like flip said, the good times seem tainted now.

For example, I'm a somewhat obsessed Lord Of The Rings fan, and for the premiere of the 3rd movie, H and I went to New Zealand and were next to the red carpet, and then we also spent a couple of weeks travelling all over the country visiting a whole bunch of the locations they used in the movie, (as well as seeing other stuff along the way). Since that trip, whenever I'd watch the movies, and I'd see some place we'd been, I'd remember the time we'd spent there....

When there's a sweeping, aerial shot of Edoras, I'll remember how excited I was when I spotted Mt Sunday in the distance as we were driving along the dirt road, and how I squealed to H, "OMG I think I see it!" before pointing it out to him.....

When I see the few quick shots of Aragorn, Legolas and Gimli on the Dimholt Rd, I'll remember hiking over rocks, under the hot sun, for what seemed like forever, just to get to the location they used, which was so gorgeous and otherworldly it took our breath away, (check out some pics (not mine) here, it's seriously gorgeous).....

When there's the scene where Aragorn kicks away the orc helmet and falls to his knees screaming, I remember how I stood in that very spot and re-enacted the pose in honour of the gorgeous Viggo Mortensen, (who I'm utterly in lust with......he's my celebrity H ), who actually broke his toe when he kicked that helmet, (that was a real scream of pain in the movie). I remember saying to H, "I know it's taking my obsession to tragic levels, but I'm here, and I can't not pay homage to the moment," then H shook his head and laughed as he took my photo.....

I haven't been able to watch the movies since H left though, because the thought of having those, "We've been there!" moments is just depressing now.

Everytime I see anything red and heartshape at the stores, I wish I could blow it all up.

I can totally relate to that! Bombs away, I say!!!

I have asked H to go to dinner with me. H said he would think about it. During one of my non DBing moments I pushed him for an answer. H finally said forget it. Now I don't even want to ask or bring it up. The thought of him going out with someone else haunts me too.

I'm sorry to hear that he changed his mind about dinner with you.

You know what I just realised? My brother is gonna be seeing H next week, and he's gonna be seeing him on VDay! I've mentioned before how my brother and his girlfriend play on the same football team as H. Well they haven't played the last few weeks, but yesterday I was talking to my B and he said he'd sent H a txt to say that he wouldn't play this week, but intended to play next week. H replied and said that was fine, and that there were 2 more games before the finals start.

B was saying that he'd been thinking about how he'll act around H, and decided that despite the fact he has every right to treat H with utter contempt, instead he's gonna try and be perfectly civil. H always goes around a shakes everyone's hand after each game, (H is the team captain), and B said that if he comes up and offers a handshake, that he'll just happily shake his hand as if nothing were wrong at all. I said that was probably the best tactic, because it wouldn't be what he'd be expecting, and would probably mess with his head, and maybe prompt him to think about things a bit if B acted like there wasn't a thing wrong.

Now that I realise that this will all be happening on VDay of all days, I can't wait to hear from my B as to how it all goes down, because OW may very well be there to spend VDay night with H, (mind you, if my suspicions are correct, then OW will already be there, because I think she may be one of the girls on the football team).

For Valentine's this year I've organised a trip for a 14 single female friends to a cocktail bar/restaurant. I didn't want to sit around being depressed so I planned to make a good event out of it. The idea proved even more popular than I thought it would be!!

That's a great idea. Hope you have a good night! Too bad I don't know a bunch of single girls so I could do the same. I'll just be at home, watching House and wondering how my B is going with H.

I've decided that my response to the property settlement letter from H's lawyer will basically be a letter asking that some of the points be clarified. Things like where the $2500 cash payout figure comes from, (though dad and I reckon we've worked that one out already anyway, I'd still like to hear it from the lawyer), clarifying that the "furniture/whitegoods" I get to keep includes electrical items like the TV, computer etc. And finally, letting them know that they got my name wrong. First of all, they used the title "Ms" as opposed to "Mrs", which I assume was H's doing, because he knows I go by Mrs, but doesn't want to think of me as his Mrs anymore. They also spelled my first name incorrectly, which I have to assume was their own clerical error, because I'd hate to think that after 10 years, H could spell my first name incorrectly! Dad actually joked that I should just not respond to the letter, and then when they question me about it, I should just say, "What letter? That letter? But that wasn't addressed to my name, so I assumed it wasn't for me and didn't read it."