Am I piecing? I am sooooo confused

[Heywyre]

Thanks Ali - it seems strange to hear someone tell me how strong I am (other than H that is) when I don't feel like that at all.

It's been a very tough road and I am hoping I can come out on the other side of this a better person. But more than that, I want to save our R. We have both agreed that we have invested too much time not to give it our all. However, we both know that might not be enough either. But, if it isn't, at least we will know that we tried and have every intention of remaining friends. I hope I can refer to him as my loving husband again one day instead of thinking of him as the man that ripped my heart out twice. I know that sounds brutal but it is exactly how I feel right now.

I have good days and bad, like we all do, but it seems lately there are more bad than good. I just want all this hurting to stop.

And, yes, I would be interested if anyone out there has any books on the subject of needy vs needed