~~~~Enjoy the sex, and let me know how things work out. I'd love to see the look on your H's face after you get ahold of him. ~~~~
I am looking forward to it too.... he is out of the country at the moment and just a few days ago he professed to me on the phone his pain but he could not put THE PAIN into words like you did for me.
He also sadly told me he has been telling me for years VERY TRUE and that I WILL LISTEN AND SAY I GET IT AND THEN I AM GOOD FOR A DAY AND THEN I GO BACK TO THE ME THAT DOESNT SHOW AFFECTION.
For the most part I truly wanted to get what he was telling me but really until you put it like that in black and white,, I was feeling desperate and feeling like I was never going to get it. crazy as that sounds,,,,
I knew it is was a simple as being open and sexual and not being a slave to my emotions but just in the way you expressed the pain it made it real for me. I imagined my H saying this to me and the pain I am causing him. And I really see I have alot of work to do on myself...
I am robbing us of happiness a happiness I am so desperately seeking and My H as well. He made a mistake but he deserves for me to be present and for me to love him and you know what I deserve to love myself too.
I need to do alot of work and I had read the book Passionate Marriage back in June of last year and borrowed it to my Aunt..... and have since called my Aunt to borrow it back!
I know that your post WAS BIG FOR ME IT MADE THE PAIN I CAUSE HIM SO TANGIBLE... IT WAS LIKE I JUST DIDNT HEAR HIM OR SOMETHING. IT IS REALLY HARD TO EXPLAIN....
I HEARD HIM BUT I think I was getting defensive inside and just didnt really know how bad I made him feel. If when I make love I am making him feel bad cause he really cant feel my heart then what kind of gift is that?
Sorry for rambling sweetie ,, this is just so big for me... I cant wait to see the looooooooooooooook on his face either and the day after and the day after.
I think I am going to also invest in a YOGA DVD,,, the physical release is good for me and the flexibility he will love even more . I took it last year for 2 months ~~YOGA~~~ and he was in heaven when he saw me after 2 months being flexible and passionate now that WAS awesome !!! You have made such a difference in my day and I have a clear vision now,, God I hope I can do this and stop being a slave to my emotions,, no I will do it He wont be home for 4 weeks or more and when he gets here I will let you know if I blew his mind or not...... THANKS AGAIN AND GOD BLESS you , you have surely blessed me......
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