Lissett, thanks for the positive thoughts. Actually, I moved from Alaska and live in Ohio(very cold here this week). I am taking classes and am working my way to my Masters in Science.
Yes, I am too focused on her. The big thing is, I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop (or start acting like a couple), and am starting to feel that I am wasting my time that I could use completely restart my life.
She literally told me today that all the things that I have done is because I hate her, and that I should admit to the counselor that I hate her. Yeah, I know, she is doing it to hurt me, but after she blows off steam, she is nice to me. Ack.