My wife told me on October 15th, 2006 that she had rented a place and was leaving me. She said she did not think I would care because of how angry I seemed to be at her all of the time. In short, I do care, I went to anger management and am still going. She never left and we are piecing our marriage back together a little at a time. It has been over 3 months since she and I have ML. She lets me kiss her sometimes and hug her every day. No real contact however. She says over and over that the reason was my anger which has been a problem for years. I controled her by being mad at her when she did something I did not like. I made if hard for her. She never turned me down for sex, but now says that was to avoid conflict most of the time. She says that she is working on getting over the bad feelings from the past, and that is why she is not ready for much physical affection. She has been allowing more every day, but still much less then I would like.
She says there is nobody else and there has been. She never spent even one night in her apartment. She comes home from work on time every day. We spend most evenings together. We go dancing, to dinner, to movies etc. We always have. Here are the things that bother me and make me concerned and jealous. She wears Victoria Secret Bras and panties to work every day. She has a terrific figure. I think she looks very Sexy. She has done this for a few years, since she had breast augmentation surgery. I supported her decision to have the surgery, and I was very involved in the process at her request. I percieve that she is protective of her purse and Cell phone. She never leaves either with me when she is not right there. Put this together with the not having sex with me, and I have this terrible fear that she is seeing someone else. The only time she could, would be during the day at work. She works in the health industry, and is not always in her office, because she travels around the city for meetings etc. I have no proof. I have no evidence. I have asked her and she says she is not. She says she loves me. She says we are in this together when we talk about repairing our marriage. She says she is not about to give up on us. She wears a wedding ring when she leaves for work, and has it on when she comes home. I'm afraid my fear could be completly unfounded, and will cause me to do something like snoop, investigate, spy, or something worse and blow everything we have built in the last 3 months. The problem is, my fear is real and it is strong. I need help to get over these feelings. Help. HerBuddy M 49 W 50 S 22 D 20 Married 26 years
