I want to be strong and let go and I am just stuck and it is frusrating me so and I need to move past this and get going again.... I just seem stuck/stagnant/sad/depressed/ugly/hurt/afraid/terrified/like I cannot do this right and I am going to fail. Why am I here feeling like this when just a few weeks ago I was feeling stuck but knew I could make it better by working hard,, I feel up against a wall and I do not like it. WOW I feel miserable in my own skin. Yuck again. I cant get started and I am just plain not even enjoying myself and my heart actually hurts and has been racing all morning,, even after talking to hubby this morning in Mexico I am still stuck,, yuck. God help me. I want to feel whole again and just be happy that I am alive and feel blessed again just b/c I am alive .. Please help me GOD. This anxiety is how I felt just before my h dropped the bomb last time , I am truly for what its worth terrified and it is swallowing me whole,,, wow God bless... God bless...
