Well, BR dance was an interesting event (I'd say affair, but I hate that word now) last night. At break time I had the urge to grab my coat and leave! W was correcting me frequently, or actually fine tuning my performance. I'm not sure how much was my sensitivity and how much was her being a b!tch! Again, my W looks at dance differently than I do, she has done it since childhood and does a number of different styles in other classes. She looks continually at the "little things" and, unlike myself, can actually notice these subtle things that make a dance better. I'm just nervous and trying to stay afloat! I tried to tell myself this, and follow her "suggestions" but felt kind of deflated when I never hear anything positive. Just before break she made a remark about how I was holding her and my face just fell. It was obvious to her I was not happy. During the break she began to small talk with me, which is unlike her, and initially I wasn't receptive but then decided to let it go and carry on. Now, I thought about mentioning it to her but, again, I wasn't sure how much was me and how much was her. My akwardness and sensitivity versus her perfectionism and tendency to be a b!tch. On the way home we did not speak, not unusual. I guess I'd just like to hear once in a while "Hey, you did pretty well in this dance" or acknowledgement when I correct something she pointed out. I'll figure out what to do before next week. On the way she started to talk about our finances, no problem. She suggested we get together as a family on the weekend to start looking at how to cut down spending and start a savings program. I said I thought her suggestion was wonderful. Then she started with a longstanding approach to problems, she began putting us down. "This is disgusting, the way we handle our money, our children can't even go anywhere and have to sit at home because we can't handle our money" I pointed out that we have had a number of large expenses to cover but no longer and it is therefore a perfect time to start saving for things. Our kids just went on a trip to China in the summer, costing $6000 and we just took them for a weekend getaway. WTH does she think is reasonable! Oh well, got to go...work calls! Oh yes, I guess I should have validated rather than defend, live and learn!
