H and I had been trying to get preggers for 3+ years when all of this started to happen. We've both been tested, and there's no *good* reason why it hasn't. Honestly, I believe in my heart of hearts that this has to do with a lot of issues we both needed to work on, and the universe knew better than to send us a child.
In any case, H has developed an appreciation and love for children (something he was unsure about), and I now trust we will be a team rather than me the heavy and he the pushover. We only want one, and as we are both getting older, it's now or never. This was an issue he wanted to talk through with the MC, not sure exactly what he wants to say as we pretty much talk to each other honestly these days, but it's really the last "big" thing either of us can think of.....
On another note: H's surprise 40th b-day party was FANTASTIC! He was really, really surprised and incredibly touched. I started planning this back when things were bad, acting "as if" so to speak, and I'm glad I did. It was a great success, and a night H will remember forever. It felt good to do something like this for him AND for me, as it was WAAAAAY out of my box. More than a 180 though I know that's mathematically impossible!
I even invited the snatch...still can't stand the sight of her...hope that goes away soon...
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Me: 40 H: 43 H had EA from 2/06-9/06 Bomb 5/06 Piecing since 9/2006 3/2008: Boundary setting 7/2009: Boundary crossing~dropped my own bomb. 8/2010: Marriage finally on track!
