I try not to think about you and yet I keep you in my mind it is burning me up and taking over all my time.I love you so much but you want to push me away,, I love you and always have and yet you seem to keep your heart under lock in key and yes then I keep mine safe. I am starting to remember that when I met you I was scared but then you were so d*mn beautiful,, I let go and loved you and just knew that you were the one. I wasnt scared to show you me, show you my hurt, show you my scars ,show you me and you seemed to love me the same .....you were so in love with me and we were so in love and I miss you and I miss the fun we used to have when everything wasnt so damn hard ,
I miss your beautiful smile and I just plain miss you and who you are,, I know you are under all that, but you would rather stay where it is safe instead of come out and play with me.I have missed you for a long time and I had the old you back for a short stay when we got back together,, why cant you just let go and let my love in your heart? Why do you hide? I want you and I need you to but you are always pushing me away. Am I that hurtful to you that you need to protect yourself? I fell in love with you and it does not go away,, the pain is there and I persevere, I know we can have something so precious so beautiful but something is missing,, you feel sad and like I do not love you. I pray God will help me to help you , but if you do not love yourself I can not do much baby.You are like a little boy lost and in so much pain that it comes to the surface and you just keep pushing it back down instead of letting it out. I am trying like h*ll to fill in the blanks ,, if you could only see in my heart and know the way I love you.. I hope to show you before it is too late and we both lose what could be so so so very Beautiful. I have always loved you and yet you do not know,,, how sad. All my blessings to you and your heart and your Happiness,, WOW I need to show you me.... LOVE is not supposed to be this hard is it? GOD bless....
