I also act out of fear and insecurities. I see that I cause myself alot of pain by doing this and it seems the harder one tries you still underneath it all feel insecure,, there have beeen times when I feel grounded and those are the best arent they? I give you alot of credit and admire your strength RE: the whole OW sitch,, God bless ya..... Hang in there sweetie and stop being your own worst critic,, you are a beautiful person and you need to embrace that for any change to come and for you to move forward and not be stagnant. Easier said than done.. (((MAMA))) I know.
I do the same things you do.... Remember when your R started and that fear was not there,, GOD to feel that peace again what a gift. You and I will get there we just have to start loving ourselves more so we can give more and be more open and not so fearful. I look forward to the advice you are going to get cause right now I feel alot of what you are feeling........ God bless.....
