Journey of a Happy Heart

[COG]

Nic,

I hear ya, and I understand. I admire how far you've come, and how much you've grown and healed.

You know how hard I've tried. I have really tried to break down the barriers, but now it's his turn to reciprocate in a more obvious way.

You've hit the nail on the head with that one. That's the way it should be.

You are right, COG, that he did have these same qualities when I married him. I thought his irresponsibility was charming b/c I am so over-responsible. I thought his fun-loving side was refreshing b/c I tend(ed) towards seriousness.

I guess the point is that maybe YOU have changed, he's still the same, so how can we blame him. Sure he should have grown up, been more responsible, more caring, but he's never been that way. He does'nt know how to be that way. He's untrained!(No excuse for infidelity mind you.)

Just so ya know, my human side would like to shake the man. I mean why the heck would he be walking away from such an awesome person. Not perfect of course, but you're just all around so far above the norm in so many ways. It just amazes me how lame some people are.

I'm actually feeling pretty good. I'm peaceful. Somewhat sad, but peaceful. I remain open to the God and the Universe, and I will see what happens next.

Well you sound really good and your attitude is in the right place for sure. God Bless, and keep up the good works.

Love,

COG