L you are so right that my pessimistic side comes out when he goes. You have made me realise it is every time he goes to work and I know exactly why that is - because he went to work on bomb day and although we'd argued the night before I thought it was just that and he came home late and said he was late because he'd been thinking and had decided to leave me. I think everytime he goes to work my memory reminds me of that horrible day and it makes me feel nervous about him coming home and saying the same thing. Completely silly really. I guess it will just take time.
