Listen to JenJam. She is great with her advice and has helped me an awful lot. I agree with her that you haven't blown it. I think you've just asked for some reassurance a little too soon and because H isn't entirely back to "normal" with his feelings he has just blurted out an answer that doesn't make him feel pressured.
I also think he wouldn't have M you and had 2 children with you if he didn't love you. He is still confused UL. My H said the exact words to me only 2 weeks before he moved back in. He said the feelings had gone and to stop waiting for him to get them back because he wasn't going to. Now after 8 weeks of being back together he sleeps in our bed, wears his ring, takes me out, kisses and cuddles me and has said himself he doesn't want us to fail and is trying really hard at all the outstanding "issues". Remember you should believe nothing they say and only half they do. I think it still applies while they are coming out of their fog. I can't see why H would have moved back in if he didn't want you two to be together and he wouldn't want to be with you if he didn't love you.
Forget what happened and pick up where you were. I know its hard I keep backsliding too. You are doing so well and you are going to make it it just takes longer than we want it to. IP
