I took the afternoon off today. Attended Rememberance Day Parade with my DAD.
I took everything that was sent to me became very strong and pulled up in front of the house. I was planning to love like I have never been hurt before. H pulled up, I said I didnt have a very good day today. I dont want to talk about it. But I did. Told him my thoughts today werent pretty and I keep going back to that letter. Again he reassured me that it is nothing and I shouldnt think about it. He loves me and only me. I told him everytime something like this happens it knocks me back a few steps, it feels like someone is putting a dagger in my heart. I dont like feeling like this.
I went inside straight to the computer and Lily I read your last post to me. You are truly amazing. I went outside and said I have to ask you to do something for me. If you get another letter I want it brought home and we will return it unopened. He said he would do this.
I think I have pushed the envelope enough. Time to get back in the driver seat and proceed as I have been doing. I had so much fun at the cottage because that is the person I have become the one who Dances like nobody is watching.
I just dont like this person pulling my mood down. I wont let it anymore promise.
You guys are absolutely amazing. Thanks so much, Loretta
