Hey, IP, I can understand the feelings you are having. I always felt not quite good enough, because I was bullied by a group of girls in school. When I fought back, I got punished. I hated feeling that way, and this whole sitch makes me feel that way, too. I, too felt that a man's attention made me feel more like I belonged. It is a blow to your self esteem to have your H not desiring you just yet, but take heart, he is coming around in so many ways.
I agree with Jen-Jam about the IC, to help you with those issues, and you can usually schedule the appts. so they are not so often, they cause a financial burden. I so much like going to see my C, because he can decipher some of the things that got me and H to where we are, and because he has seen so many examples of this, he can give great advice on what I can do.
I think you two are doing well, just slow down, it'll happen.
