Wow my H just let it all out and he sid that he is still giving too much and he feels like I am not giving anything again and that he is very sad for our relationship.
I cried and cried and cried some more and now I feel like I have to go to the drawing board again. Like I have just turned back into my old insecure self and he will soon be done with me for good.
I know he deeply loves me but somewhere I am just missing the d*mn point completely and I feel so apprehensive. I feel like if I do not get this right he will end up hurt and so will I. He seems to be in alot of emotional pain and it is all from me not showing him how I feel about him and just being like I used to be and not changing he says.That he is tired of giving and not receiving ,, I am really scared. I am terified and not of him leaving really but of him living in sadness and us just not getting it right. I want him to be happy and I want to be happy and like I said I just am missing something and If I could just make it work things would be so much brighter. I need to really focus again and yet I feel very overwhelmed like he expects me to have some Magic Wand. I want to fix this to change it to make it pretty and new and for him to feel loved and I am scared I will fall short and he will remain unhappy.
??????? Wow,, I feel like I am going to have to for sure start over. God bless....
