Am I piecing? I am sooooo confused

[Heywyre]

All good ideas LN, and I am pretty much doing all of them

"Are you setting goals for him, or tests for him to pass?" - as for that suggestion, I have never set any goals for him and sometimes I think maybe that was part of the problem - just letting him run rampant. He said one of things he liked about me was that I "grounded" him. I don't have any expectations at this point, I am just trying to get through day to day.

The part that seems to irritate me the most though is that WE are the ones that have been wronged and WE are the ones that seem to be doing all the work - hardly seems fair wouldn't you say? And besides that, After WE do all the work, there is no guarantee it will be worth it. I know that sounds like sour grapes but I can't seem to help thinking that way right now, it just seems like it is me doing everything and he is just standing by hoping to reep the benefits.

I am just so exhausted right now I can't seem to even think straight. We go to the C this afternoon so I am looking forward to that. All weekend was exhausting - he spent most of his Saturday and Sunday with his male friend - and left me at home to do housework, laundry etc. etc. He works 2-3 days a week and I work 5, plus evenings, trying to keep a business going and teaching during the day. I just can't keep going at this pace and not collapse. I have asked for help but it lasts for a couple of hours, or a few days if I am really lucky, and then goes back to the same ole ways. He thinks just because he works nights, and sleeps days (while I am working) that is sufficient to sustain this R - well it isn't and I feel resentful about that.

Just another thing to talk with the C about I guess eh?