A lot of times, when one person in a dysfunctional R gets better, the R can fall apart, simply because the 'glue' that held it all together is no longer there, regardless of the quality of the glue.
Your R is going to continue to feel strange to you simply because you HAVE made such enormous strides, and I think you hit the nail on the head, exactly, when you talked about not being in your comfort zone anymore. And, even better for you, you've changed enough now that even if you did go back to that comfort zone, it still isn't going to feel comfortable to you.
You've made great strides. Your H is now changing simply because you have. But you cannot predict his behavior or his responses anymore, simply because YOU are not the same person. See?
I understand this place very well. You will continue to go up and down, up and down. But I'd suggest you 'stablize' in your new MoJo skin befeore you make any radical decisions (which it sounds like you are). Your H is going up and down, up and down, too. You can see it all over your posts. Nothing about your R feels 'normal' or comfortable to you anymore... but that doesn't mean it is bad, or that you've reached the end of growth or the R. More than likely, you are just on the verge of it.
See how funky growth feels?
This is where the woman needs to stand as still as she can. Do what you can, as best as you are able. Your old habit would have been to pull the 'chicken little' response... but obviously, that is not feeling quite 'right' to you. But in absence of ever being in this new place you now find yourself, you aren't quite sure what to do.
What do you do when you get lost?
You sit down, assess the situation, and you stay exactly where you are until you can begin to think rationally again. You take stock in what supplies you do (or don't) have with you, you take stock in what you do and don't know about your surroundings, you try to find your bearings...
But you do NOT run pell mell off into the woods simply because something might look familiar.
You are doing fine, sweety. Really. Let things stablize a bit. Who knows how long this will take... but I guarantee you, if you give it some time, you will feel better, the terrain won't look so scary, and you will find your way back to thinking clearly.
