I know exactly what you mean. I am glad to hear that you are trying to do this for you. It would make me happy if at least one of us could mend our R. Mine is over. At least for now. Who knows what will happen down the road but it is my turn to take care of buisness.
Ben 32 STBXW 29 3 kids (D1,S4,SD8) (1 dog 5months) Status: Fighting for the Kids.
"The only thing we know about future developments is that they will develope."
I would love for him to come to his senses and come home to work on our R. But again, it has to be his decision. I pray that he will realize that our M is worth saving. We all know that I am here for him if he is willing. But on the other hand, I am going to start living a life without him. (That is so hard to say.) You know that I will NOT be the one to file and will not agree to a D. (unless stupidity goes to another level)
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
Well I said that as well but you see where I am at with my sitch. I did not want to be the one to file but I have no choice in the matter right now. Sucks but there is something in the back of my head telling me that it is time. However, My heart is telling me otherwise. So much confliction with in me right now it is starting to hurt again. I am hoping that by seeing my kids tonight that I will be back to normal and realize why I am going to do what I am going to have to do.
Ben 32 STBXW 29 3 kids (D1,S4,SD8) (1 dog 5months) Status: Fighting for the Kids.
"The only thing we know about future developments is that they will develope."
Nothing new to report. I am just keeping my distance from H. I only call when I need something. He has actually called me and our conversations don't delve into R. We are being so nice and loving towards each other. Even though he is still with OW, I am continuing the fight. I did find out that he put in a change of address to her place. That was a punch in the gut, but I am trying not to dwell on that either. Things will come and things will go, but in the end my H will return to me! That is my positive thought for the day.
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
Still on my pursuit of not calling H. He did call me today to apologize for not showing up yesterday. He had mentioned that he was going to come and take S5 sledding. That did not happen. So he called me a little while ago to apologize. He said that he needed to be alone yesterday and spent the day thinking. I just asked him if he was ok and told him that if he needed to talk, he knew where I was. Other than that....nothing more was said. I don't know what to take of that convo but oh well. One day at a time!
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
I know...but daggon it. I would like to take something out of something that is said one of these days!
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
