Thanks Rob.... PMA is definitely cranked way up there this morning. Last night was a blast and really got my mind off of things. I also found out that it snowe 3 inches in Memphis last night, it is supposed to be 67 in Phoenix today....Yeah me.....
Great time had in Phoenix ya'll. I had a brief moment of really missing my wife but spoke with Scott and got by it simply realizing that it is OK to miss her. I got back this afternoon and the W was in a much better mood. We drove out to a superbowl party with the kids, had good solid conversation and were both very relaxed.
The superbowl party was good, I did my thing and ws very social with everyone, was very vocal during the game and cracked my usual wise cracks as I always do. I played flag football with the kids and showe off for the woman as all men do. I am currently paying the price as my knee has swollen up to Grapefruit size. I did score a touchdown, had 2 interceptions, and tackled several of the older boys (OOPS flag football not tackle). I really had a great time and dint focus on all the crap, just let go and was myself like I used to be. I feel very good about how I did.
Phoenix did get a little wild at times. My Boss brought some, uhhhh stuff with him to calm me down while on the road as he fealt like I have been very tense lately. To be honest I hadn't touched that stuff in over 20 years so it was a little awkward, but it really did relax me. I turned off my phones when I did it so that I didnt do anything stupid..... The second night however I did answer Swashy's call and that was a wee bit embarassing... what can you do right???
So I am going to stick to my plan, stay a bit distant, let her make contact with me, and let her be the pursuer if she wants this to work out. I am going to try and just be myself and the best dad that I can and let the chips fall where they may with my W. She knows where I stand and there is nothing else that I can do at this point but let her make her mind up. I am completely ok with that right now, allthough I do know just how hard it will be to not contact her everyday. Luckily I have wonderful friends here who keep me in focus even when I feel like the chips are down.
I hope everyone else had a great week and I will try and get caught up with ya'll as the week goes along.
found out about affair 8/06 H moves out Nov/06 D final 8/07 X re marries OW 5/08 _________________________ Courage does not always roar, sometimes it is a quiet voice at the end of the day saying... " I will try again tomorrow". -- Mary Anne Radmacher
found out about affair 8/06 H moves out Nov/06 D final 8/07 X re marries OW 5/08 _________________________ Courage does not always roar, sometimes it is a quiet voice at the end of the day saying... " I will try again tomorrow". -- Mary Anne Radmacher
