So me and the kids will go about our day and when he comes home (no matter what time) I will hug and kiss him and be happy contrary to how I might actually be feeling.
Just be happy for what is, and little things.... like.... your kids have a dad they can see every day and not just every other weekend. Your kids have a father who is raising them and not some other woman's child/children. Your husband lives at your house, has his stuff there and spends a great deal of his free time with you and the kids. His car is at the house when he's home!!! (I can't tell you how sad it made me feel seeing the empty driveway when my husband didn't live with us). Most nights (if not all) he's next to you in bed and you can reach over and touch him....
These are just some of the things I'm thankful for at this point. I can't say my husband will stay with me or be with me tomorrow. But for little things and him just being here for now I'll be thankful for that. And in the meantime I'll keep working on being just happy with myself.
There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.
