how to keep calm and patient??

[Jen_Jam]

Hi IP

OK - meds could help but I know many GP's in the UK are reluctant to prescribe them.
Wold it be worth you having a look into yourself and your childhood/teens? I don't want to sound like a nutty professor but some of the roots of my neediness were in my childhood, and all of my low self esteem. What helped me was individual C sessions - if you decide to go this route look up on on the BACP website, they charge about £35-£50 an hour, but I found it was well worth it.
This is tough on you and I'm concerned you're not coping well. You know t needs patience, you have GAL and you still panic. IMHO this needs to be addressed cos - and I hope I'm wrong - it looks like H may not be able to give you enough reassurance, do you see what I mean? He will recommit fully to the M and ML, but will you still be happy after that? Your trust in him has been severlly broken, it's a MAJOR shock and I KNOW what it's like - I went through the same, in fact when H recommitted there was a point I wasn't sure I wanted him back - I nearly became a WAW myself. My forte was anger, I can be quite a firey person and I got C sessions after I thumped H at a party (not my finest moment). But I wish I'd done something about the anger before it got to that. Thank God I did do something.
So I suppose I'm saying it looks as if you're struggling like everyone does in piecing, but in you it manifests itself as panic and dwellign on the negative. Please see your GP, they can arrange C sessions on the NHS too. I had a couple of those and the lady was very good (but I felt a bit weird going up to the docs and saying I was there to see the Mental Health Worker!!).

Good luck and do keep posting - these boards are a good way of lifting you up too, can't do any harm to stick about!!