ok, this may not be a good idea or thing that happened. My H and I talked alot by phone on Friday. He talked about our R and even told me about how he feels about OW. He said he has seen changes in him since he has been with her. He told me that she lights up the room when she walks in and when she touches the back of his neck he feels tingle all down his spine. BOY did this ever make me feel bad. I just listened to him and said I understand. But he did agree with me when I said at the point when he left I think any woman could have made him feel that way but me. The thing is I came right out and told him that I needed sex! He was in shock because that was a 180 for me. That was something I would never say to him. and he told me that. So then of course I got into detail over what I had been missing. I can't believe I did it but I did. After talking for 30 minutes, he said I have to go and I will call you right back. He called back and said, look two things, If you really want to have sex I will and ....I don't remember what the other thing was. I was just so shock that he wanted to especially after what he said about OW. He texted me later and it said....You would really have sex with me knowing that i have possible had sex with another woman and possibly not tell that I cheated on another woman? Would you use it against me? I of course said I wouldn't use it against him.(but i could if i wanted too!) Well Friday nite I said that I was going out. I did and I had a few to many and called him to come and get me. He asked did i want him to take me home. I said no. We went to his apartment and Had wonderful sex. OK. We agreed only if there were no strings attached. During sex he said NO strings right? I said NO strings and continued. Earlier I had asked him why he wanted to have sex with me and he said he didn't know why. Especially since he can get it from OW. Now I feel like we are sneaking around. He doesn't want anyone to know. We both talked about it being exciting. Its like I am the other woman having an affair. with a married man. who i am married to. Trust me I am being careful. But me going out to bar and asking him for sex is a 180 for me. I TM him the next day to see if he was ok about the nite before. I thought he might would regret it. But he said he was ok. and he said he might go out with me and friends next time. He also asked me if I thought he was a bad person for doing it. Meaning cheating on girlfriend. What can i say. He is my husband. I don't really care if OW gets hurt. He is still seeing her, but i hope with time he notices my 180's and wants to come back. Please don't critize me too bad. Is this a bad thing I am doing?


Kissak

"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3
M-37 H-37
S-10, D-15
M- 1993
First bomb- 12/23/06
Came and went too MANY times!
Gone again 10-25-10