Still in the fight

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Update, spent the day w/ family. This PM went to SIL house and visited. Had a great time, little talk about W and D, but some. I put on the brave face and limited it to "she has every right to be happy, I don't agree with her solution, but it is her choice to make.

Spent time w/ my mom and dad later in the night, I think I got them to understand me and what I was doing, and helped them to worry a little less about me. I told them that by letting her go, I was allowing her the space and freedom to choose for herself to stay. If the D comes to pass, it won't hurt any less because I tried to do everything I could to save it. The kids won't be any more or less traumatized because of this way vs. the alternative, and there would be ample time for me to deal w/ my own emotions. My emotional pleas have not and will not bring me any closer to a solution to the problem which is acceptable to me.

They were ultimately very supportive of my choice, and I reiterated that when everything is said and done, I wanted there to be no regrets, I wanted to know in my heart and in my mind that I have done everything possible to make my marriage work.

Sleep well my fellow DBers, and may tomorrow bring us all one baby step closer to our goals.