I agree, Steph, sit back, talk about a roller coaster!!!Your w really has some major uncertanties...but she is including you, none of us know the real her, but it sure sounds like she does not want it to be over. I know I am not at the place to be offering much, I think she really wants you to be a part of her life, she is not sure how, what, when....
Sue
p.s. don't question her invitations, go if you really want to be there, don't if you are only doing it because it seems right.