Steph, I am so happy that you are realizing so many important things about yourself. You have become so much stonger and because of that and maybe this board, are able to move on without completely falling apart. I know that you don't really want your m to end, as all of are here for that very reason. I also see that we can't go on in a m that makes one or both unsure, uncomfortable, unwanted, unloved....I could go on and on. I have a great respect for your decisions. Hoefully you and your w can become friends enough to take care of your d the way a child deserves in the middle of such conflicts. And PLEASE keep in touch from time to time Sue