I am doing well, thanks for the good wishes everyone. I dont feel like posting much but I DO read up a lot, so keep posting and I will try to sometimes drop by your threads .

I have decided not to post so much because it was become an obsession: trying to analyse everything. It lead to great let-downs as well as bloated hopes.

As it stands now, I have NO chances of ever getting back with my wofe and...to tell you teh truth, it does not hurt that much. I am enjoying my life and looking at life in a new perspective. Do I really want/need to be with this woman? Well, as things stand, I KNOW I dont NEED to be with her, and I am questionning my desires to be with her. You see, she is unhappy (yes, even with ME out of the picture!!!???) and frustrated and frustrating and I am not enjoying her company so much anymore. I am not going to let HER get me down. If she is unhappy...it is no longer my fault. If I am happy, it no longer depends on her moods!

We did go out to a film festival last night and had a great time, but I was happy to come home and leave her behind (especially when she started talking about her guilt, her inability to deal with our daughter, her frustrations etc...). So I am not going dark...simply dont feel like spending every single moment of my time with her. I am going out tonight, have made plans for New Years Eve (and I am looking forward to it ), have made plans to have friends over for supper over the holidays and I am not including her in my plans...not to be spightfull, but because I want to be me, and I cant do that around her!

So that's where I stand at the moment. You may see me less, but I'm still around!

Steph