Steph: I only wants to say you i understand how sad you are feeling bc christmass morning... i know my h suffered too much last christmass morning also, but in that case he decided that...!!... he picked up my chldren at 11:00am just to give them his presents, but it was not the same... seeing his little baby opening the presents... He always told me he felt during that time out of life... missing something, not hving what he wants, being with OW and without us...!!... Yes, he was missing a familly... So, i know it can be so hard, but let your w miss you on that morning... i know you are thinking about your child, but remember, she beleives in santa, and santa always comes, with or without daddy...!!.. just try to slep later that christmass day, and to wake up later too... can it help...?!!... i dont think so, but i know you will handle it well... is just another hard moment to be on control and pass it...!!... My heart is with you...!!