Well, I think this is it. I have given it my best shot, but there are no longer any steps in the right direction. Only the Status quo. We get along, and that is important, for our daughter, but the love we once had is no longer.
I am a bit sad, but at peace...it no longer breaks me apart. I will try to make a life for myself without my wife at my side.
She is not coming to the C session on Monday...and not because I did not ask her, she told me, it was her choice and I respect that. It will also give me a chance to discuss certain thing with my C.
As for Christmas...we are trying to work on something. She realizes that I will miss out, but what can we do. She does not seem openend to me going over to her place (and she WILL be coming home rather late on the 24th/25 in the morning). But we did discuss the fact that neither one of us wants to deprive the other of that joyous morning, its just that we dont know really how to solve the problem. Still some time left.
My daughter, that is what makes me sad, not my wife. I dont feel like I will miss my wife as much as my daughter on Christmas morning. I shall have to wait till next year!
My wife said goodbye, talk to you in a couple of days. She has NO intention of getting closer...and that is fine. I shall miss her dearly, but will thrive never the less.
