steph,
you sound like you've really gotten "control" of yourself..and are now handeling things with the right attitude!!!
yes the holidays will be hard...I would imagine christmas especially with a little one...while my h was adimant about d...christmas was very much in my mind...I knew at least that the kids would wake here in their own home as for the six months he was "completely" out they stayed here every night with me...he came here to be with them... weather or not I would have let him stay to wake with them that morning I do not know at different times no way...others well maybe...but then our moods do change on this roller coaster don't they...
christmas is a special day for families with little ones especially those early ones when the kiddos are still in awe of it all...I would hope your wife would be willing to let you either come over in the wee hours before d wakes or be so kind as to allow you the couch..
if not well then theres always next year when she will be more into it and be at your place (i'd hope you'd swap years if it came to it)
keep up with the detaching there's nothing wrong with it...in the months prior to my h deciding he wanted to try to work on the m, I often thought to myself...I almost don't want him to come back because then I will have to be the one to make the descision if I want to work on the m or not.
LL
