Ok, for my own sake I am printing my goals here again:
1. To love my H with all of my heart no matter what he was or wasn't doing in return. 2. To be the type of person (fun, happy, loving) that H would want to come home to and spend time with. 3. Banish negative thoughts from my mind and be grateful for all of the good things in my life.
He did come home a little after I posted, very quiet. While we were having lunch I asked him if anything was wrong, he of course said nothing was wrong that he was just tired and went upstairs to take a nap.
Sure he is tired, I would be tired too living a double life
