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Any clue? Any 2 cents worth is worth more than 2 cents (right KAW)!

Hi Steph,
First of all, thanks for your support over on my thread. Fear not!...All your pleading, pegging and whining will NOT drive me away. So you want my 2 cents worth?! ... actually, kinda wish Tbone was hear to chime in. Back in June and July, he was going through much of what you are now. You may want to scan his threads from that time period.

OK, I, too, to some degree know how you feel. At a time, when I started to feel better about myself by working on my PMA, my W's moods were mostly negative. I didn't want her to affect how I felt so I would make myself scarce more. It may work for the time being, but ask yourself ... Do you really want to continue to feel this way every time you are around your W? Do you want your current feelings to lead to how you will continue interact with W? (and this will affect your D, too.) If not, you are the one in control of how you WANT to feel when you are with her. Then, for now, you need to act "as-if" you will not always feel this way. Most important thing is in the first moments of contact to act "as-if" you ARE going to have a pleasant time with her in an attempt to diffuse any negative expectations she has. You just dealt with this when dropping your D at her place. Continue being calm and upbeat and she will rebound quicker. However, if she persists in being a "downer" then it is you choice to overlook it or not. If not then it is most likey wise to remove yourself. You seem to be building some resentment over removing yourself. It might be best to think of it as a battle of wills ... one trying to overtake the other. Her negativity has a draining effect on your PMA unless your PMA becomes strong enough to no longer influenced, then your PMA can affect her negativity. Until, your PMA can tolerate whatever she throws at you, you will need to distance yourself in order to avoid succumbing to her attitude. Right now, this is where you are at. Hope it makes sense?

As far as C session goes, I agree with LL. If you wish to work through your issues, then that should be done in an individual session. Correct me if I'm wrong, this Monday's session was schedule as a joint session and your W is aware of it? Then it is your W responsibility to set her agenda to be there or not. By asking all the timif she is going make it sound like you are playing the role of her guardian. Do a 180 here and don't ask if she is going. Just show up for the appointment. If she doesn't show, then you will get your oppurtinity to explore your issues. If she does show, then it will demonstrate that she is keeping a door open in which you may work on bring you closer together. Doesn't mean you have to work on reconciling. More useful purpose is to allow for a safe, non-judgemental environment in which to express to each other what you feel. It would be appropiate to bring up how her actions of late have affect you.

Oh where did the time go? ... Lunch break is over ... well you did ask for my 2 cents worth ... hope you don't regret it.