My D is close to 6 months old. I take her for walks to the park and such, but as a family, we have only been to family functions. My H does not plan any special time to be with her. I guess it is because he takes care of her during the night, he feels that is enough. On the weekends, if he has places to go with his friends, he will stay out until the wee hours of the next day. Even if it is his mom that will have to be responsible for our D. He was not like this before he found out of the A. That is why I feel so guilty.
We do share in laughs about our D. When we talk we are able to still share other things as well.
It is important to enjoy your time with your S. I am making that a priority with my D. My pregnancy was one of the worst moments of my life but that was because I allowed it to be.
My H and I used to write little notes and letters to each other, but under the circumstances, I don't think he will read what I have to write. I have tried on a couple of occasions to give him letters, but I don't think he reads them.
I have been running the scenario of his return in my mind and I honestly just want to give him a big hug and kiss, but I don't want to send him running in the other direction. Whatever I do, I will keep in mind your advice about PMA and good atmosphere. I am also making sure I am not disappointed if he decides to go out right after getting back.
I will keep you posted. Thank you for thinking of me. I think of you as well.
Journaling:
Another day with no contact from H. He called the house number I guess expecting to get his Mom. His niece picked up and on her end of the conversation, I guessed he asked if the kids were behaving. She ended the call abruptly when her friend came over. I tried not to, but I had to ask her what he had said. She told me what I had thought and said that is all she remembered him asking.
Oh well. I am trying not to think of this as a significant indicator of anything.
The azalea has been planted. Didn't get a chance to get on the bike today, but I will tomorrow.
