That is very sad. I remember knowing I was ready to leave in part because I felt so neutral - not angry, not sad, just nothing. There is no doubt that your H has taught you that it is not worth it to feel anything about his words and behaviors. I think the statement that you made on another thread about your H saying that he just "fell into the marriage with you" - well, it p*ssed me off. Has there ever been a time that you accurately labeled the crap your H throws at you and then walked away without further discussion? For example, "H that was a mean thing to say" or "H, that was uncalled for." I don't know that it will change what he says one iota but it might help you accurately assess things and feel your feelings again. I hate that it "doesn't bother you in the least" to be turned down by your H - that smacks of resignation not differentiation. You are too good a person to go around resigned and unfeeling.
With the emotional armour you have learned to shield yourself with can you tell how much it would hurt to stay or go? Maybe you should visit a C to help make this decision. A decision about leaving your M now or in the future certainly bears some exploration before you just respond to one of Mr. MJ's sh*tty comments with a a packed suitcase on the spur of the moment.
