Inpain, I can sense the anxiety and panic in your writing. Some have the ability to quell it with mind control as SD points out. She rightly tells herself she has no control and it helps calm her. I convinced myself of this as well and it helped me to relax.
I understand that some need stronger intervention and that's where AD's and IC's come into play. I've never taken antidepressants and I don't believe they are the cure all, but I've heard a lot of people on here say how much they helped them initially get control of their emotions which in turn helps them rationally think and act through this process. Have you talked to your Doctor about what your feeling?
"It is curious that physical courage should be so common in the world and moral courage so rare." -Mark Twain
