Thanks everyone. And armed with all this I must continue. But I am finding it hard. After she repeated her "I'm not in love with you and will never be" mantra, I found that even though much water has passed under this bridge, the wound is still fresh...and painfull. I spoke to her twice today and the first time was quite hard. My daughter has skating lessons tomorow morning and we (wife and I) have made a commitment to being there no matter who's week it was! Today, she says "I'll try to be there but I wont be able to stay for very long...and if I'm too hung over to go I'll give you a call." (BTW she is going to a fundraiser with work friends and her brother...gonna have a good time and all...I wish she would invite me along sometimes ). Well, my heart just sank. I said she didn't need to come at all, she got defensive, said she wanted to and its not like she had planned something better to replace this. Well, long story, many details left out, but you get the jist of it.

Being sick does not help! I am tired and daughter has a tone of energy.

My wife just seems so damn determined right now. She's convinced that we have to start thinking about how it will be when one of us (i.e. her) finds someone else. I told her I wasn't even gonna go there. I felt no need to.

Anyways, we have a C session Monday night. I am wondering how many of my cards I should lay on the table...confess my undenying love for her AGAIN ? . Tell her how I see things, even though she knows already and sees them differently? As far as dating or finding someone else, I figure the more time she spends with me, the less probable that is . lol

She did however say that we would be spending time together this weekend...I have got to get out of this funk and back to what works!

Steph