Awesome, NGU. Thanks for that word of encouragement, I will pick up my pompoms for 2007 being the year of Restoration. \o/\o/\o/ WOO! (b/c 2006 was NOT)
Thanks everyone for popping by. I was feeling lonely and you make it better.
H is at the gym tonight - he is even forgetting to say 'goodbye' when he leaves now, and goodbye pecks (as crappy as they were) are also a thing of the past. But he's all about loving on the kids, etc. I keep slipping and saying 'honey' when I address him about something, and I'm thinking I need to bite the tongue and nip that sh!t off. I've quit the ILY's way back b/c he will NOT say it. And back to no touching in bed, not even the feet anymore. WTF?
WHO THE FCUK CAN LIVE LIKE THIS LONG TERM? UGH.
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Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Is 43:18-19
If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time. Hab 2:3
Look at your marriage problem as a Goliath in your life. Be like a David, you will defeat the enemy. Don't fear. Our Mighty Awesome God WILL, WILL, WILL, come through for you. No matter what the situation is, God will come through for you.
If it looks BAD, IMPOSSIBLE, UNFIXABLE, DISTASTEROUS, DEAD, these are things our God specializes in. Let it be bad, God can fix it. Let it seem like it is impossible, yes, He can fix it. Let it seem unfixable or disastrous, these too, He can fix. Friends, NOTHING, NOTHING, NOTHING, NOTHING, is hard for God. Believe this - NOTHING, NOTHING IS HARD FOR GOD. He will do it for you. Don't worry about it. Give it to Him.
Believe God can change it. All things work together for good. God can use bad things and turn it into good. Believe this.
Listen to David talking to his Goliath.
"David said to the Philistine, "You come against me with sword and spear and javelin, but I come against you in the name of the LORD Almighty, the God of the armies of Israel, whom you have defied." (1 Samuel 17:45). David puts into practice several sound biblical principles when he faced one of the biggest challenges of his life - Goliath.
These principles are effective for all of God's servants: Recall past victories: David immediately recounted his victories as a shepherd when he defeated attacking lions and bears. Recounting those times when the Lord has come to your aid will fortify you for your present challenge.
Reexamine and reaffirm your motivations: David's love and devotion to the Lord and defense of His name superseded any of man's paltry rewards. We must be ever-vigilant to gauge our true motivations.
Reject discouragement from others: Don't listen to your friends or relatives, telling you to go on with your life or to "move on." Listen to your Creator. Don't listen to the created.
David did not listen to his older brothers or even King Saul. He listened to the Lord's voice. Well-meaning people sometimes can quench your faith if you heed the wrong voices. Recognize the true nature of the battle: God is involved in every aspect of the believer's life. This means that everything is spiritual in our lives - everything that touches us MUST COME THROUGH GOD FIRST. Think back on Job. The devil had to consult with God FIRST.
Rely upon God's power for victory: From the beginning, David proclaimed that the battle was the Lord's. This isn't "psyching yourself up." It simply means that you trust the Lord so much that the victory already is decided in your mind. It is a settled issue. IT IS SETTLED! VICTORY IS SETTLED!
We are on the winning side. God has NEVER lost a battle. Trust Him to heal and restore your marriage. TRUST HIM, TRUST HIM. DON'T DOUBT. TO DOUBT IS A SIN. Believe that the Creator will do this for you. Come what may, trust Him to do it for you.
Mighty God, Mighty God, Mighty God, Bless your people today, bless them. Whoever is reading this encouragement today, bless them and heal their hearts. Give them wisdom, knowledge and understanding, give them peace. Minister unto them and help them not to worry about their situation because it is in YOUR hands. Jesus, My Sweet Jesus. Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, we cry out to you today, Dear Jesus.
Be encouraged
Pastor Doreen
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Is 43:18-19
If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time. Hab 2:3
Ah, whatisis, I hear you friend. Thanks Aud, for stopping in. I hope I make it. Today I feel as gray as the sky here, and less optimistic.
Ya'll, this just SUX, yes? H commented on my blog AGAIN last night but won't freaking talk to ME about it. ack.
I apparently touched a nerve, but dude I am not trying to poke him with a sharp stick. He's just taking it that way? IS it a stab at him? AM I being P/A? sh!t. Going to email him a reply. B/C we're all about emails here. I'm freaking NAKED in the bed last night and he faces the wall. WTF. Venting. Ranting. Pay no attention.
I read a REALLY cool how-I-met-my-husband story last night. The emotions were powerful and made me smile to remember similar feelings from my past. sigh. Then I tried not to cry myself to sleep when H came to bed and faced the wall. Fcuk. I hate this.
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Is 43:18-19
If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time. Hab 2:3
Sweetie, this all really does suck. In many ways we all are tempted to hide behind our 'red dots', to keep hanging on to them--they justify so many of our fears and weaknesses.
Someone wise once asked me what I could do for myself when H wasn't/isn't there for me. It was a tough question then...I think I'm getting it now. What can/are you doing for you?
Hey Girl, Just read what The Husband wrote on your blog. Clearly he does not feel good about himself and what he did and I really think that you are making him feel worse. He faces the wall when he gets in bed because he cannot face you crying. How has your mood/attitude been lately? Men are a lot more sensitive then you may think. You need to start "acting as if" everything was "normal". He probably can't hug or kiss you right now because he knows how bad he has hurt you and vice versa. You need to change the focus from the red dots to those gold nuggets, K?
Sorry things aren't improving for you, BI. Perhaps you could look at his blog replies as a positive though? Perhaps it's the only way he can feel comfortable talking to you for now? It's probably hard for him to even write in your blog, particularly if it's something you won't want to hear (or read, as the case may be), but look at it this way, at least he's making a small attempt at communication of somesort. No, it's not ideal, but it's not nothing either. Perhaps he's starting to find the strength to open up to you a bit, but still can't do it to your face. Perhaps?
Also, maybe he feels intimidated when you go to bed naked? Speaking for myself, I was the low libido partner in the M. Was never particularly up for it, so if I'd come to bed and H was already naked it'd do my head in and put me on the defensive and stress me out because I felt put on the spot. Maybe your H feels a bit of the same pressure, which is why he turns his back on you? Maybe he'd feel a bit "safer" (for want of a better word) and under less pressure if you weren't naked next to him. He may be seeing that as you coming on too strong with something he's just not ready for yet. Then again, if you've just always slept naked, then I guess my theory won't apply, because you're just doing what you've always normally done. Figured I'd throw the theory out there anyway, just as the perspective of someone who was prone to wanting to freeze up and shut down when there was the prospect of surprise sex in the air.
Me:30 H:30 Together:10yr H left:Oct3'06,couple weeks before 5th wed anniv. No Kids OW bomb:Jan19'07 My thread: He filed.
